That's it, I am posting a blog!

I am tired of starting writing little blogs and not finishing.  This morning I am writing a blog with no idea what I am going to say.  Really, what is going on is I am again stuck in this limbo.  New rain fallen, just a few drops gathering together, sliding down the hill, struggling to become a trickle, the trickle becomes a small stream, soon finding its way to the creek and the point of no return as it builds and builds into...whoops, ran into a dam!  The water level slowly rises against the dry cement wall.  That's where I am right now.  Again, the water will begin to crest. A few drops are beginning to breach the blockade splashing over the edge with the rhythm of the new body of water trapped behind it, then the point of no return again...or maybe some eco-activists or local villagers will smash the wall and set me free all together. 

Anyway, I am just hanging, looking at the computer, looking for a home, but not finding the right place.  Not wanting to settle for the wrong place.  So I just hang out in another’s house, dreaming of where I will be going.  Hoping my loud-ass roommates will quiet down so that my daughter can get all the sleep she needs.  This is my life, day after day.  I have all the faith that things will turn our great, but until then I sit here, gathering ideas, dreams, intentions and packing them away for later, like all the stuff in the garage.  Two-thirds of my life packed away in boxes waiting for the move, two-thirds of my ideas packed away in my mind waiting for some space to be realized.  It can get really annoying, but what I can and have been doing with this time of creative/life limbo, is connecting with people, strengthening relationships, building my community.  Don’t need space to do that.  And oh I am so excited for the summer.